This afternoon I went back to the doctors as I am still in a lot of pain. The pain has changed in both my back, hips and leg. It’s a bit difficult to explain but I know that something is different on my back. I can almost feel it as well as sense it. I explained this to my GP who then read the letter from the Consultant to them and immediately said “this letter says go to A&E”. I explained that I didn’t want to waste their time as there is nothing they can do in A&E other than give me painkillers then send me home and that I will not be eligible for emergency surgery until I become incontinent or paralysed.
She reluctantly admitted that I was right, I think she knew that I knew that she was trying to fob me off. She asked me what I wanted her to do! This really pissed me off! Who is the GP? Who has the medical degree and training?! Trying to stay calm, which is extremely difficult when you’re in a huge amount of pain, I asked for different or more painkillers and if she would refer me for another MRI as I know something is very different in my spine. After a few seconds of mulling it over she agreed. She then looked at my current painkillers and proceeded to ask who had put me on both Co-Codamol and Tramadol as the Co-Codamol would be useless next to the Tramadol. I told her that she was the one that prescribed them. She completely denied that it was her and tried to say it was a locum GP.
At this point I’d lost the will to live so asked what she could do with my painkillers. She took me off the Co-Codamol and prescribed Butrans 5mcg per hour Morphine patches. Then she added my MRI referral to her to do list. Then she proceeded to show me how long her list was and tell me how busy she is with them being short of GP’s. I bit my tongue as I really wanted to remind her that it’s her and her husbands practice so hire another GP or 2! She advised she couldn’t confirm when she’d be able to send the referral. I just thanked her through gritted teeth and left.
Every visit to see my GPs feels like a battle. I usually leave feeling exhausted, disappointed and upset. I’m stuck with this practice due to it’s location. As the saying goes I’ve just got to…